this is my curse

tell ya'll something my roommate has told me countless times

"you always get what you want and what you wish for"

while i've never agreed, i kinda get whatever i want just as long as i want it.
but i also get what i wish for, whether i really wished for it or not.
and that's really fucked up.
remember the midas touch?

if this is some divine game, then sometimes i wish that i could just die and get it over with.
see, the irony is that i will most likely do so...

so whatevver happens to me tomorrow, know that you have touched me in some way in my life. and i'll always treasure that. i'll bring memories to heaven. or if i can still remember would that make it hell instead?